Our life .. sweet and sour

Should I believe in God ? This question has always haunted me. God is a supreme power. Omniscient, omnipotent. The Tsunami that destroyed Japan, the hurricane Katrina, the previous tsunamis all were “God’s will” and “nature’s rule”. “karma” says some.

Let’s come all the way from this macrocosm to microcosm. Our regular life. Each one of us expects “justice” but in turn do so many injustices to others. There’s an invisible battle going on throughout. We become a part of this battle since the first time we take our first step outside our house, away from the care of our parents into this harsh world.

We all have been through lots of hardships, struggles, humiliations, betrayals, in our life, and the most interesting fact about us all is we all think that “no one will ever know and can understand what I’ve been through”. Of course it’s true that different people have different kind of experiences in their respective lives. Some have endured a lot of pain while others, may be a little less. But we should know that a person thinks his/her pains that he/she has been through are the deepest unless that person experiences something even more cruel.

What we all can do to reach our dreams? Strive, battle, stay awake night after night,

It depends how desperate you are and how important is the goal.

As some gangster would say – “ dream ? ura denge do char ko” ..

Student -  “Study all night long, and phir bhi nehi hua to cheats ;) “

Service man – “ overtime”

House wife – “ Mai ke chali jaungi phir dekhenge kaese sab karta hain akele akele”

Player/singer/artists  – “practice and practice”

So we see everyone has their own ways. But sometimes when dreams becomes obsessions

Things starts going so wrong. We lie, kill (not from a gangsters' point of view), bluff, cheat (not from a student’s point of view), hurt feelings, act, deceive and finally when we reach our target, our “hands” are all so bloody, soul, all so wet with guilt. And the “white” dreams all have turned black.

We avenge our pains sadistically hurting others, innocent people (and our excuse goes like - "kabhie to isne kisiko dhoka diya hoga.. mujhe nehi to kya .. kisiko to.. kabhie to .. all human beings are the same [and you too are a part of it my dear] ) . We quench our emptiness with lust. We achieve peace with war.  We learn that the rules of survival resides in “being selfish”, “being self centered”, we bluff to impress people. We fake our abilities, talents, which we don’t actually possess to satisfy our “desires”.  In the end …. We do get what we want, and throw it away with a bitter concluding note just the opposite of the way it began.

For example a girl dreams of having a sweet family ( hum do humarein do), A small house, a caring husband, who goes to work every day at 8 a:m and comes home at 6 with chocolates for the kids and a his sweet wife. And the person she loves and thinks perfect for her dream, is actually planning to start his carrier overseas where he won’t be able to take his wife along with him. On the other way, a guy fancies a life where he’ll get married to a girl, and everything else goes the same as the previous case, just that this guy doesn’t want his wife to work. Now the girl who loves this  guy (and of course the other way round) hides her passion for achieving an identity and her ambitions from this guy unless the day she's sure enough that he'll compromise with his dream - shattered right in front of his eyes. Compromises are always necessary for a perfect relation but we should not take anyone as granted after exploring their weaknesses, after the person reveals his/her helplessness -  that he/she will sacrifice anything in his/her life for the person he/she loves as without that person, their life is nothing.   

But bingo! That’s what we prey for. Weaknesses! Without giving importance to other’s dreams and wishes. We just start finding excuses whether that person deserves his/her dreams to come true or they are simply wrong with their “meaningless/baseless” choices of dreams. And we go on judging unless it satisfies and hides our own guiltiness. For example the previous guy will tell her girlfriend – “C’MON don’t be silly itni acchi job ka mauka phir kab ayega. I’ll mail you. Don’t be so childish (kiu ji? Yehi childish nature pe to ap pehle fida the !! )
and the ambitious girl should say – “ oh! You are nothing but a male chauvinist P*g, with a typical middle class mentality” (kiu you surely liked this simplicity that he had unlike all the other “ex” boyfriends in your life).

HARSH BUT TRUE !

We judge other’s dreams, wishes, to reach our own. We kill their childhood fantasies for our own motives. We are human beings we are our own enemies, we are our own Gods. Our beliefs, our own ways to view things, our own actions to judge life are the karmas. And the tsunami, its just a natural event whom we can fight back if we all join hands together against it.

That’s why whenever I find a cockroach drowning in a bucket full of water, I save it’s life taking it out of there. Then I Count 5 to provide it with time to get ready and when it finally starts running, I start chasing it holding my chappal firmly. “Justice! “ ;)